The following conversation between a believer and God
is not meant to represent a specific theology or theological truth. It
represents one believer's struggle and the response that believer
represents as God's truth for that believer and that believer alone.
Lord. I love you.
love you back my child.
were you the one who made it all so difficult and painful? Did you
arrange my life so there would be so much suffering?
my child. I did not make the suffering. However, I did not push over the
walls or remove the barriers. I did not remove the obstacles.
Why didn't you push over the walls, and remove the barriers and
obstacles? The barriers and walls have made everything that much worse.
child, you must look at your life from far away. I left the walls and
barriers where they were so you could choose to reach my destiny for
you. If I had made everything free and easy, what would have become of
you? Where would you have gone? Would you have been mine?
Uh…well, I know. In my heart, if you had pushed over the walls and
removed the barriers I would have run off in my own direction. I would
have been who I always wanted to be. I would have done what I always
wanted to do. I would not have been yours. I am ashamed to say this. I
am ashamed to admit this.
you understand now?
but I don't like it. My life has been and is more than I think I can
know my child. You life is and has been difficult but your life is the
life I have always wanted from you. Your life has been more valuable to
me than you could ever imagine. Although you might think your life is
not so important to me, you are wrong in thinking such things.
there is so much difficulty, pain, and suffering, everything in my life
is blurred. I cannot see clearly how things are lining up like you would
like them to line up.
child, all things are working out for my glory. Even in your hardship,
you are keeping your heart open to me and to my voice. The fact we can
talk like this means you are still mine and I am still yours.
it get easier?
my child. It will not get easier until you see me.
know. I am living within you, so I know. Where is your heart?
don't know. I am so beaten down I don't know where my heart is. Well,
yes. I know. My heart is in you and with you. You are my hope. You are
my future. I think a lot about my future. I think a lot about being with
you in heaven.
you afraid of seeing me?
I look forward to it.
child, you will reach your destiny. You are on the path of your destiny.
Before you were born you knew your destiny. Look deep in your heart and
you will see how you are on the path and how you are getting closer to
reaching your destiny. You are blessed in this way. Many people never
get close to even walking toward their destiny. The walls and barriers
of your life were left in place so you would not stray too far away from
my path for you. I know you don't like it, but I want you to do it. I
know you don't like your path and destiny, but I want you to walk my
path and reach your destiny. As long as you are willing to walk my path,
you will bless me and in time I will bless you and all those you pray
for each day. Remember, your willingness to walk my path ripples out all
over the world. Your life is touching thousands upon thousands of
persons you will never know until you see me face to face. Do you
of. It is a little hard to believe you made things more difficult so I
would walk your path.
child, I did not make the pain and suffering. I left walls and barriers
in place to keep you in my will. The walls and barriers have made things
more difficult but the pain, suffering, walls, and barriers were not of
my making. I did not make any of them but I did not remove them either.
Let's be clear about this. I used all of them so you would glorify me in
the world. The greatest work of your life or any person's life is to
glorify me in spite of the darkness in your life. Think of the walls and
barriers as if they are a maze. Your destiny is getting to the end of
the maze by walking a certain path. You have made wrong turns. You have
hurt and suffered. You have gotten off my path at times. However, most
of the time, you were on the right path. Remain in me and you will reach
your destiny or destination in my will and love.
Lord. As you will it. Thank you Lord. I love you.
love you back my child.