A Big Pill
Question I received via email: I am angry at God. I cannot
pray. When I see the devastation of the World Trade Center I
cannot pray. Most of all I feel hurt. Do you have an answer for
Answer: Yes, I have an answer for you. However, the answer is
like a big pill…hard to swallow.
Many people believe God controls everything. They believe God
controls when people die. They believe God sits in a control
room somewhere and pushes buttons and pulls levers to help or
hurt people. You have heard some people talk about "the
will of God" and these persons imply that everything that
happens on earth is somehow controlled by God. The idea that God
controls everything is totally wrong.
Just think about the common sense of this matter. Do you have
a mind? Let's assume you do have a mind. Can you make up your
mind or can you make decisions? Let's assume you can make
decisions. When you come to a cross street you can go right,
left, straight ahead, or stop where you are. In this instance,
you have four options. To believe God controls everything and
everyone is to believe (A) you do not have a mind of your own,
(B) you are not capable of making decisions, and (C) that you
have no options. Your common sense should tell you that you can
make decisions and that you do have options.
Now we want to get down to the nitty gritty. If you have a
mind and you can make decisions, which direction will you go? If
you believe God controls everything then you end up believing
you do not really have a mind of your own and you believe you
cannot really make decisions. You cannot have it both ways.
Either you believe you are totally controlled by God or you can
make decisions on your own.
The real truth about the way things work in the universe, in
the world, and in our lives is that there are two forces at work
in our reality, not just one force. The two forces at work are
good and evil, light and darkness, God and Satan. Here is where
the pill gets bigger. If you and I accept there is a force of
evil, a force of darkness, a force we call Satan, then we have a
problem. The problem we have is what do we do? If we accept that
Satan exists, how do we react? If we accept Satan exists, what
do we think Satan is and what do we think Satan does and will
do? The way we handle this problem of Satan's existence
determines how we look at life and at ourselves. If we deny that
Satan exists or we minimize the existence of Satan and consider
Satan a cartoon character we can blame God for the actions of
It is easier to blame God for bad things happening than it is
to put the blame where it belongs…on Satan's shoulders. Every
time we feel pain, hurt, or when we suffer in any form, it is
Satan at work. It was the handiwork of Satan that took down the
World Trade Center and consequently the lives of thousands of
people. By infecting the minds and hearts of the perpetrators
with hatred, Satan won. When we blame God for the bad things of
life or we hold God accountable for not stopping bad things we
shirk our responsibility as humans.
We hold murderers accountable for their actions. We must hold
Satan accountable for being the evil and dark influence in the
world that Satan is. This pill is hard to swallow because when
we admit there is darkness and evil put upon us by Satan we need
a hope. As a Christian, I find my hope in God, in Christ, and in
the Holy Spirit.
In the middle of the mess of the pain and suffering of life,
we have a mind and we can make choices about where we put our
heart and mind. We can choose to align our heart and mind with
God who is Light and love or we can choose to align our heart
and mind with Satan who is darkness and evil.
The pill gets larger when we realize that it is our natural
state to align our heart and mind with evil and darkness. It is
natural for us to seek revenge. It is natural for us to seethe
in anger. It is natural for us to be full of hatred. It is
natural for us to be continually influenced by Satan and his
power of darkness. When we get angry with or at God because we
think God does what Satan does, we are being influenced by
Accepting that Christ died for each of us is not natural.
Accepting Christ is not natural and few people surrender their
life to Him.
What each of us must do is to understand that there is a war
between God and Satan. This war goes one in our nerves, bones,
heart, and mind every minute. When we choose to respond with
hatred and anger we give Satan a chance to work in us and work
in our world. When we choose to respond with love, we give God a
chance to work in our world.
God does not control everything. You do not control
everything. What you can do every minute is to choose to love
rather than hate. You can choose to take every hurt to God who
wants you to take your hurts to Him.
I pray that these words help you find peace with God.